Time for an update! It’s been a month since I last wrote a blurb about our life.
As I’m sitting here, I’m looking at my daughter. Yes, MY daughter. A feisty, charismatic, strong willed little girl. She has a loud boisterous voice and always has something to say. From her farm life foster home, to a city life in a townhouse…she’s done well. We go on walks, the park, playgroups and wherever we can burn off some energy. Even though I’m exhausted, I can not imagine my life without the chaos. I’ve stood on mega blocks, tripped over toys and cleaned up her everlasting mess.
As Mother’s Day approaches, for the first time, I don’t feel the “dread”coming. I mean, I feel okay about it but it will never be easy. I was robbed of biological children. My body failed me. Time and time again. Would I love a bio child? Yes. But I would never change the decision to adopt. She gives me to opportunity to be a mother. The opportunity to teach her what life is about…what is right and what is wrong. The opportunity for this little girl to belong, to be loved and to be cared for like she needs to be.
To all the mothers grieving this Mother’s Day…I feel your pain. I understand the feelings of being helpless and to have that ache in your heart that never goes away. For you still struggling or dealing with losses….you are amazing, strong and hopeful. Sending you all a huge hug this Sunday. Get off social media, treat yourself to something nice. You are worthy of being happy.