I experienced loss early in my life. I lost one set of grandparents in my late teenage years. That was incredibly hard, and I think of what they would of said to me today. I had one of my old boyfriends pass away. Loss is a tough thing to deal with, no matter how it comes to you and in what avenue. You never forget what happened, or how it happened but you pick up the pieces and live your life how you should.
In saying this, I have never experienced pregnancy loss. I have only experienced the inability to conceive a child. That, I feel is somewhat “loss” as well. The fact you see everywhere that people are pregnant and you are not, leaves a big hole in your heart. I don’t want pity, I don’t want consoling, I just want answers. I want to know why the “loss” of being a mother continues to continue in my life. Some may not agree that it is “loss” but maybe I see things differently. One day I hope to get my answers.
I used to go to counseling. When I went I found out that I’m the “mothering” type and have done that in most of my relationships. If I’m so much the mothering type, then why aren’t I a mother?